Bittersweet

Today is a special day for many women across the globe.  A day where they can either celebrate their mothers or their children…in some cases both.  Sadly, for some, it is neither.  My prayer for those women is that they know how special they are, how loved they are, and how important they are to the people close to them and to their Lord and Savior.

Today is a special day for me.  My mom is the greatest.  She is such an example of a Proverbs 31 woman.  She works hard, gives much, sacrifices, loves, is patient and has a love for the Lord.  She is pretty perfect when it comes to moms.  Today is a day I can celebrate her and how blessed I am to have her in my life.

I am doubly blessed in that I also get to celebrate my children.  My 4 children.  Today is a bittersweet day for me.  I have so so so so so much to be grateful for…a great mom, other great women in my life (grandmas, aunts, sisters, cousins, nieces, friends), and children that melt my heart.  (I have great men in my life, too, just am focusing on women today)  It is also a day that hurts my heart.  I miss my Joshua…every day, but today hits harder than most.  We will be going to the cemetery (or Joshua’s Park as we call it) as we do every Mother’s Day to make sure his area is the most decorated in the cemetery.  We will go through the explanations again as to why we are there when he is not, why we leave him presents that he can’t play with, and why sometimes we are sad even though he is in the best place he could ever be.  These topics are difficult for adults to make sense of, but the kids grew up with their brother in Heaven and have accepted it in their own way…they make sense of it in their own way…sometimes I think they understand it more than we do.

My day will be happy, too, because I can just hang out with my kids.  My oldest son at home with us is a miracle.  We put a lot of effort into getting him home…all of it worth it for sure.  He has a giant heart and a lot of love!  He loves God and people.  He is great!  My daughter is close to Jesus.  She loves to learn, is super smart and is good at caring for others.  My youngest is a bit of a goofball.  He also loves Jesus and cuddles and life.  He is in a testing phase right now, but we love him anyway.   All our miracles are truly miracles, none arrived easily, and each is a tremendous blessing.  I am grateful for my children even when they push their limits….I am blessed to have children to hug and scold and discipline and teach and LOVE.

For all those who are saddened today…you are in prayer.  For all of those who have reason to celebrate, let those loved ones know how blessed you are that they are in your life.  And for everyone…enjoy a beautiful Sunday…a gift from God.

Happy Mother’s Day!

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