12.23.12

My little guy would be 8 years old today.  Sometimes it doesn’t seem real and sometimes all too real.  I miss him.  I know a lot of people out there may think I should be over it.  I’m not.  I gave birth to my sweet son and buried him days later.  Shame on me if I ever got over that.  I love him and always will.  I praise God for taking the best possible care of him.  What an honor Joshua has to live for eternity with his King!

The balloons are all ready to take tomorrow along with his trees and toys.  His place at his “park” (we call the cemetery his park) will be decorated beyond compare!

Below is the passage we put on his website nearly 8 years ago.

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JOSHUA 1:5 ~ No one will be able to stand up against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you.

We were so blessed to have Joshua in our hearts, arms and lives, even if for too short of a time.  We have memorized his precious face and look at his pictures constantly to give us comfort.  He is greatly missed, forever cherished and always remembered.  We know he is experiencing such joy in Heaven and we know that we will see him again!  What peace that brings!  Though we miss him dearly, Joshua is and will remain a very important and special part of our family.

MATTHEW 19:14 ~ Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.”

Emotions and Blessings

It is a hard week for me.  My Joshua’s birthday is on Sunday and so we will take a family trip to the cemetery.  It will be bittersweet.  We will decorate his gravestone better than anyone’s in the cemetery.  He will have Christmas and birthday balloons, trees, toys, etc.  The kids will want to leave one of their toys for him.  It will be a tender day.  And yet we will smile knowing he is safe in the arms of his Savior.

It was a hard year.  We saw a lot of loved ones struggle either with marriages, loss, health, parents or children hardships.  Every year, every minute sometimes, I realize how fragile and precious life is.

This year, I held onto those precious moments.  I breathed them in.  I felt guilty when I took them for granted.  We are not promised perfect families or perfect health.  We are not promised that life will be pain free.  We are promised eternal salvation in Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior.  We are promised that He will walk through each minute and each pain with us.  We are promised that there is no pain in Heaven.  I ask of anyone who reads this to give your life over to Jesus and spread His word to all you know.

I take photographs often, even when my camera is not around….I take photos in my head.  I know that I am blessed beyond belief with my husband, my children, my parents and family who love me even though I am far from the perfect wife, daughter, sister and mommy.  I thank God and them for giving me chances far over what I deserve.  I pray to the Lord that each of them will live with Him for eternity.   My personal life this year didn’t go through the trauma that I watched others go through, but my heart ached and broke for each one.  Each one made me appreciate each moment with my blessings.

Cat and Mouse

Just finished Cat and Mouse by James Patterson.

It was slightly more predictable than the last one, but not in a boring way.

More gore…yeah…it was pretty gruesome in parts.

Less politics…yeah…I am still having a hard time determining if James Patterson has an underlying political agenda, but I have decided not to worry about that too much and just read it for readings sake.

Written better than the last one…by far!

I like this book and would recommend this one.  🙂

12.17.12

John 20:30-31

30 Jesus performed many other signs in the presence of his disciples, which are not recorded in this book. 31 But these are written that you may believe that Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God, and that by believing you may have life in his name.

 

Remember miracles still happen today!