Perfection

I am glad I am not perfect.  I am glad I am so far from being perfect that I have no place to judge others.  Of course we all do at times, wrongfully.  But…I am glad that is not my authority.  (note: Christian accountability and malicious/flippant  judging are very different things)  I am thankful that God can see past even the ugliest of sins and see how He can use that for His glory, in many cases taking the sin away and creating a whole new person from the trials.

Right now there are some people in my life that are choosing very different paths than the ones in which they started.  I have Christian and non-Christian friends trying to take control of situations that need to be given to God.  Someone asked me yesterday why I want them to be in Heaven.  My heart breaks over each situation.   I pray that God changes their hearts quickly.  I am a sinner, too.  Perhaps their sins are more noticeable than mine because they are on display right now.  That makes them no worse than mine.  So while I pray dramatic changes in their lives, I also pray dramatic ones in mine.  Though I will never be perfect on this side of Heaven, I pray that I (and everyone) will grow closer to Jesus, and His will, everyday.

Praise God who gave His only Son.  Praise Jesus that His perfection reigns and that He took our place on the cross, so that when God looks on our lives He only sees the perfection of His Son.

Clean Eating Day 2 Flop

I was happily surprised when this plan I am following allowed store bought items like yogurt, cottage cheese and regular cheese.  However, my body is not responding well.  I know I react to the dyes in foods, but apparently there is something else.  I am swelling up and itchy again.  Part of me wonders if it is dairy, as I avoided it for awhile, but I have never had dairy issues in the past.  So, again, back to the drawing board.  I am going back to all natural and just wrote up my own plan.  Hoping I can stick to it.  The only unnatural food I am allowing is my whey protein.  Will keep you posted!  🙂

weekly update

My weight is back up…ugh!  The roller coaster of this is craziness!  I know part of it is eating…we had chocolate in the house this week…bad news.  But I also think part of it is muscle, because my body fat percentage is still low…and I can see definition of muscle.

EITHER WAY, my goal jeans are crazy crazy tight right now, and whether I need to lose the fat or the muscle (likely a combo)…it needs to be done.

My plan of action is to do 30-45 minutes of cardio 6 days a week and 30-45 minutes of weights or other exercise 6 days a week.

I am also going to follow the Quick and Clean Diet book by Dari Alexander for the next 2 weeks.  I think it will help me stay on track with clean eating.  When I do well with clean eating, my body notices.

And as always, I know that keeping my inside clean, as in spiritually, kindness, bettering myself as a person, is far more important than the vanity of the outside, so I have been trying to be better about longer devotional times, more genuine prayers and have been reading a bunch of awesome books that I will post about when I am finished.  I have about 10 going right now, a page at a time, so it will be awhile before they make it to the book review page, but we will get there.

Anyone who wants to can join me…we can keep each other accountable.

Challenge and Accountablilty

This is not a New Year resolution.  I have been up and down on my weight goal for quite some time now.  The weight loss has been slow but I have added a lot of muscle, so…   Anyway, I am down to the last 5 pounds I want to lose (After this week it may be 7 pounds…weigh in Saturday).  Anyone want to join me in the last 5 pound challenge?  We could come up with some way to hold each other accountable in diet and exercise.  I would love to get 5 pounds off by February 1st…I know it is healthily possible.  I would love to have a partner in crime…hint hint hint.  Join me in the “fun”  😉

weekly update

Frustrated…

All my progress has gone back to the beginning…erg!   I am again sick and just can’t get my body moving, so I gain the weight.  😦  I am hopeful to get back into the swing of things this week…my goal will not be met by the end of the year (it wouldn’t be healthy to do so)…but hopefully not too long after.  I keep tossing around the idea of a personal trainer…but I know what I need to do, it would just be for accountability, so I keep reminding myself that I need to be better about keeping myself accountable.

Day 10

After 10 days I realize I need help!  I have no problem working out.  I have a problem controlling my food intake.  I used to be quite disciplined and am failing greatly!  Due to the working out, the damage is slow going, but it is still damage.  I do okay and than have one tiny slip up that leads to a landslide of disastrous dietary choices.

I decided that it is mostly mental.  If I followed my plans that I constantly write out for myself I would be the weight I want to be right now.  So I decided I need to whip my mind into shape along with my body.  I am going to assume with my mistakes in eating that I am now at a BMI of 20.8.  Surprisingly the internet says that 20.85 is the perfect BMI for women, which I wish was true, but then why would the menfolk drool over the tv/moviestars with BMIs of 18 or less.  (Yes, they are all beautiful despite their weight, but I digress).  I will not reveal my weight, just my BMI.

I am not going to weigh myself again until August 7th (2 weeks from today)

My goal is to be at a BMI of 20.3 on August 7th

My goal is to be at a BMI of 20.0 on August 21st

My goal is to be at a BMI of 19.6 on September 4th

My goal is to be at a BMI of 19.1 on September 18th

I believe these are doable and healthy goals.

To get a jumpstart for the next 3 days…Wednesday, Thursday and Friday I will be eating only 1200 calories.  Healthy, but difficult.

After that I am going to strive to stick to a modified P90X diet of 1300-1500 calories a day.

When I reach my goal of 19.6 BMI I am going to reward myself with some sort of ice cream or milkshake treat.  🙂

When I reach my goal of 19.1 BMI I am going to reward myself with an Onion Blossom from Chili’s.

Now I have kicked the accountability up a notch because I have dates and standards to live up to.

Workout today was light…arm and shoulder weight lifting regime.

And I did do the yoga and Linda yesterday.  🙂

day 6

Am workout = thighs, glutes with bands

Meals included…(yes again a few graham crackers…ugh!), egg whites, protein shake, berries

Water intake: 30 ounces so far

Caloric intake: AND THEN I BLEW IT!  Again.  I am beginning to feel like I am 1 step forward 2 steps back.  erg!  Sorely in need of an accountability partner or a personal trainer.  😉  Or maybe I just need to stop baking for other people and sampling too much…hmmm…

PM workout = P90X cardio (to try to make up for a horrible evening of gorging)

****Still a possibility of trying out a thigh/buns workout from good old Jillian tonight before sleep…feeling that guilty about the food.