Sweet Blessings

I know I keep saying this, but God is bigger.  Corny as it may sound if life is going to throw us lemons, God is the ultimate lemonade maker.  I pray that blessings pour out of the struggles that everyone is going through.  It won’t take away the pain, but may show the purpose for the pain.  Or at the very least, which is still amazingly great, we know He is with us through the pain.

Yesterday was Joshua’s birthday.  It is a tough time of year for me.  It is also a wonderful time of year for me.  I miss my little guy terribly, but I love Christmas.  Conflicting emotions.  My husband, the best one ever, took my kids out for a “secret mission” yesterday and they came back bearing gifts of balloons, ice cream and cards.  (The ice cream set me off on my emotion eating, which I had been controlling so well…but I digress).  It was the perfect gesture.  I cherish my family…I truly couldn’t be more blessed by them!

In the midst of sadness sometimes it is hard to find the joy…God allowed them to make the joy very apparent yesterday and I am thankful for that.

My heart still aches for my family and friends who are in so much pain right now, but it also sings with the joy of God’s blessings that I don’t want to miss through the tears.

200

Welcome to my 200th post!  I had taken a little break from the daily blogging to spend some quality time with family and such.  But now I am back for my 200th post (plus a couple extras a snuck in right before adding this one).  And so that being said here are some things that I have learned since blogging, not because of my blog, but just because God is allowing me to learn and I am blessed by Him!

* God is more than enough!  Of course I have known this for awhile, but He continues to remind me gently, and yes boldly sometimes, that He is the center of everything and I only need Him, His approval, His blessings, His gifts.

* Family is everything (after God).  Again, something I have known, but as each day passes I cherish more and more the moments with my family…immediate and extended.  These are the people that live life with you and the people that share the best memories with you (along with the hardest struggles)… and the people I hope to spend eternity with someday.

* Some of my friends are as close as family and so all that I wrote in the previous paragraph applies.

* Stuff is burdensome.  Again, already known, again, each day I realize more and more.  I want to instill in my kids right now how silly stuff can be…but they are so young.  I loved my family when I was their age, just like they love theirs, but they do love their prize possessions as well.  I hope they learn (and really know) earlier than later that their most prized possessions are Our Lord and Savior and the people He put in our lives.

* My body is what it is and if it changes, it doesn’t change what is inside.  This is an enormous lesson learned…and still being learned.  I am not a big person, but I have my areas of complaint physically.  I have gone down and back up 20 pounds in the last 3 years, but I was ok before losing the weight.  Now that I am back up, even though I know I am ok, I still struggle with wanting to be less.  I am battling the fact that I can eat almost anything I want and stay at the size I am at now, which is not a bad size, but may not be the healthiest choice in the world.  OR I can eat a lot less and go down a size, but I would look a little better and be a lot healthier.  Being an active person tempts me to want to just stay at my size, so that is my daily struggle.  Wow…see you can tell I am still learning, but at the end of the day I know my husband loves me either way, I am pretty healthy either way, and I should be working more on changing the inside of me.

* It is just as hard to change the inside of a person as it is to change the outside and it is SO MUCH more important to focus on the inside.  Old habits die hard and are not easy to forego.

* Only the red ICE drinks explode when you open them…the others don’t…why is that?  (I had to throw something light in my life lessons rambling…but it is true).

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Bittersweet

Today is a special day for many women across the globe.  A day where they can either celebrate their mothers or their children…in some cases both.  Sadly, for some, it is neither.  My prayer for those women is that they know how special they are, how loved they are, and how important they are to the people close to them and to their Lord and Savior.

Today is a special day for me.  My mom is the greatest.  She is such an example of a Proverbs 31 woman.  She works hard, gives much, sacrifices, loves, is patient and has a love for the Lord.  She is pretty perfect when it comes to moms.  Today is a day I can celebrate her and how blessed I am to have her in my life.

I am doubly blessed in that I also get to celebrate my children.  My 4 children.  Today is a bittersweet day for me.  I have so so so so so much to be grateful for…a great mom, other great women in my life (grandmas, aunts, sisters, cousins, nieces, friends), and children that melt my heart.  (I have great men in my life, too, just am focusing on women today)  It is also a day that hurts my heart.  I miss my Joshua…every day, but today hits harder than most.  We will be going to the cemetery (or Joshua’s Park as we call it) as we do every Mother’s Day to make sure his area is the most decorated in the cemetery.  We will go through the explanations again as to why we are there when he is not, why we leave him presents that he can’t play with, and why sometimes we are sad even though he is in the best place he could ever be.  These topics are difficult for adults to make sense of, but the kids grew up with their brother in Heaven and have accepted it in their own way…they make sense of it in their own way…sometimes I think they understand it more than we do.

My day will be happy, too, because I can just hang out with my kids.  My oldest son at home with us is a miracle.  We put a lot of effort into getting him home…all of it worth it for sure.  He has a giant heart and a lot of love!  He loves God and people.  He is great!  My daughter is close to Jesus.  She loves to learn, is super smart and is good at caring for others.  My youngest is a bit of a goofball.  He also loves Jesus and cuddles and life.  He is in a testing phase right now, but we love him anyway.   All our miracles are truly miracles, none arrived easily, and each is a tremendous blessing.  I am grateful for my children even when they push their limits….I am blessed to have children to hug and scold and discipline and teach and LOVE.

For all those who are saddened today…you are in prayer.  For all of those who have reason to celebrate, let those loved ones know how blessed you are that they are in your life.  And for everyone…enjoy a beautiful Sunday…a gift from God.

Happy Mother’s Day!