updates, verses, absences

I have been MIA and apologize!  I will catch up on verses.  Weekly updates are hard.  I am trying to diagnose my food stuff before I have to purchase a new wardrobe…still hoping to get to my goal before too long…but right now it is hard to think about moving the scale down when it is going up.  Going to the doctor this week so hopefully I will get some diagnosis soon.  I know apples and some wheat, but not all, throw me off.  I do not know how that connects except maybe for this oral allergy thing.  We will see.  So no scale for me while my clothes are tight.  Will get back to the scale when they start fitting normally again.  😉  Right now health is first right?

weekly update

Frustrated…

All my progress has gone back to the beginning…erg!   I am again sick and just can’t get my body moving, so I gain the weight.  😦  I am hopeful to get back into the swing of things this week…my goal will not be met by the end of the year (it wouldn’t be healthy to do so)…but hopefully not too long after.  I keep tossing around the idea of a personal trainer…but I know what I need to do, it would just be for accountability, so I keep reminding myself that I need to be better about keeping myself accountable.

Love*Peace*Frustration

I love people.  I do.  I love smiles and hugs and listening and quirks and eye twinkles.

I am pretty good at finding at least one redeeming quality in each person…most of the time.

And so…I often wonder why people frustrate me SO MUCH.

I suppose the answer is in the first sentence.  I love people.  If I didn’t, I wouldn’t care that they were ruining their lives.  I love people…my people…my kids, my husband, my parents, my family, my friends.  If I didn’t, I wouldn’t care that other people were attempting to ruin their lives.  The latter trumps the former reason, but both reasons are truth.

I am tired!  I am tired of swimming upstream to teach my children that those going with the stream do not have their best interest at heart.  I am NOT tired in a way that I will give up.  I am tired in the way that makes me sad…sad for those going downstream, sad for what my children have to know, sad for where innocence has gone.

  • Yesterday I saw a preview for a movie…A CARTOON movie…a movie for KIDS.  This movie is base on paranormal activity.  Naive as I may be, I don’t think I knew a mite about paranormal things when I was 8 years old…a common age for PG cartoon movie goers.  I guess I knew basic ghost and witches Halloween type stuff, but not dead people haunting your life type stuff.  I cannot comprehend what would possess anyone to create this for children.  It made me angry.  Why are the media makers so set on turning our children into adults (and not good ones) at such an early age.
  • I am frustrated that our children are taught to go along with society just to keep the peace instead of standing up for what they believe in.  I am frustrated that they are expected to tolerate everything, but if they stand up for the written Word, they are anything BUT tolerated.  I am frustrated that good and evil have traded places.
  • I took my daughter to see a movie about saving trees….basically.  Cute movie as a whole.  I love trees, flowers, etc.  My husband plants trees endlessly it seems sometimes.  We like to garden flowers and food.  Despite this, I am not going to mourn the loss of a tree and really don’t think someone is going to take away every tree in the world…but that is neither here nor there.  While watching the movie in the back of my mind I was pondering how many people put more effort into saving a tree than in saving a life…
  • I homeschool my children.  Homeschooling is not right for everyone and I am not about to tell you to do so, but I will tell anyone to leave it alone if it is working.  Homeschooling has received its share of knocks, but lately I have seen judgments solely for Christian homeschooling.  I hate to break it to you (not really actually), but whether you are a Christian or not does not make or break your ability to homeschool.  I will be the first to agree that many who attempt to homeschool their children fail in one way or another.  I was adamant that I would never homeschool my children.  And, guess what?  I do.  As of now, my kids are having great success with it and we will continue it as long as it works for us and for them.

I know this post may make some upset.  That’s okay.  Perhaps you will be upset because you care.  Disagreement does not equal hatred.  Please know while these issues may sound like random ventings, they are all true, honest and fully supported thoughts of this average girl/wife/mommy.  With the world changing so fast, I am trying desperately to hold onto my roots and my faith most importantly.  I am hopeful and prayful that my roots will grow into strong branches that yield good fruit and that God’s strength and wisdom is evident in my children.