Tidbits from daily life

Life has been a bit of a whirlwind since school has started, but here are a few things that have been happening:

* My husband and I are in a bible study with some of our friends, Sacred Marriage, and it is so refreshing to be in a room filled with people who are married and want to be married. ¬†ūüôā

* Without babysitting 2 little ones, and now being in a routine with school, I have a lot more time to just be with the kids uninterrupted.

* In the craziness of work, higher education, school and kid schedules, date nights are wonderful! ūüôā

* I began reading “Undaunted, The Josh McDowell Story” and while it is a difficult read so far, I have high hopes of it being a great book!

* I am looking forward to going to see “Unbroken” after Christmas. ¬†If you have not read it yet…read it!!!!

* Minnie Driver may be the best actress ever…I am watching “Return to Zero” as I type and it is incredibly well made. ¬†For those of you who don’t know about the movie, it is about a couple whose baby was stillborn. ¬†It is based on a true story. ¬†I haven’t seen this issue portrayed since ER did an episode on it. ¬†They depicted it very well, also. ¬†Amazingly, in the ER episode “Midnight” the situation was almost identical to mine…even down to the baby’s name.

* My kids ran their first mud race and it was awesome!!!!

That’s all the updates for now!

Enjoy the weekend!

Spiritual Warfare

I love Christmas! ¬†Obviously first and foremost I love Christmas because of what it is. ¬†Christmas is nothing less than the birth of my Lord and Savior. ¬†Without His perfect and precious birth, we would be nothing. ¬†Without His life begun, He could not have laid down His life for my sins and there would be no hope in this world. ¬†We are nothing, there is nothing, there would be nothing to have faith in or hope for…without Him we would all be sentenced to eternal death. ¬†Not only did He do all of that for me and you, but He has showered me with blessings of life, love, family, food, shelter…and on and on. ¬†¬†I also love Christmas because, as you all know by now, I adore being with family and friends. ¬†I enjoy gathering around sharing food and fun memories while making new memories. ¬†It is a special time filled with traditions.

The enemy does not love Christmas.  In fact, He knows that we are saved because of the birth of Jesus Christ.  I think that is why there is so much pain at Christmas sometimes.  He attacks people at their weakest at a time when they are praising the One who saved them.  He attacks and tries to turn their vulnerability into a reason to distrust God.  This is when we need God the most!  He will not let us falter, He will not let us down, He does walk through every joy and every sorrow with us.

Hanging the ornaments on our Christmas tree each year is bittersweet. ¬†There are ornaments that were meant for Joshua. ¬†There are ornaments from people that are no longer here…that died too young. ¬†There are bitter memories along with sweet ones. ¬†My parents just attended a funeral of a great man who was attacked by cancer. ¬†His family knows beyond a shadow of a doubt that he is celebrating Christmas with his Savior this year, but each Christmas will have a scar as they remember the husband, father, brother and friend that they lost. ¬†My friend just was served divorce papers this week, a friend who has done nothing but try to save her marriage as her spouse has thrown it away. ¬†Another friend is facing her third Christmas without her husband at home. ¬†Life is tough and it seems to get harder at the times when we think we should be untouchable. Satan may attack, he may even win a few battles, but we know that the Lord is the ultimate victor. ¬†We know the end and He has already won. ¬†Don’t lose hope, don’t lose faith, put your trust in the One who is with you each step of the way. ¬†Celebrate Christmas and have joy in the Lord!

Step Mom

I recently watched the movie, Step Mom, ¬†as I was running on the elliptical and it got to me. ¬†As a mom, I guess I take it personally. ¬†I do not like how through the whole movie Julia Roberts (the step-mom to be) is portrayed as the underdog. ¬†I fully believe that a mom who loves her children and is an active part of their lives should not have to compete with another for the title of mom. ¬†I am not a supporter of divorce at all, but if the situation happens and another comes into the picture, of course you don’t want a battle between your children and the new person…that wouldn’t be fair for anyone. ¬†I just pray that people begin to take marriage more seriously and these situations do not “need” to happen. ¬†I guess for me, the worst part of the movie is when the mom knew she was dying and was talking about her kids’ futures. ¬†The step mom tells this dying woman that she fears her step daughter will be thinking of her (the mom) on her wedding day. ¬†How selfish. ¬†If anything should happen to me that I couldn’t be there on any of my children’s wedding day, I would take it as a personal failure if they didn’t think of me. ¬†Of course, the mom’s fear is that she will be replaced and her daughter won’t think of her or wish her to be there. ¬†So sad. ¬†Before I was a mom, I liked this movie a lot more. ¬†Now that I am a mama ¬†bear…hmmm…maybe it just strikes a little too close to the heart.

Wedding Dresses

Yes, I am already married, no I do not need a wedding dress. ¬†ūüėČ ¬†I do, however, enjoy watching wedding shows while I torture myself on the elliptical in the wee hours of the morning.

I guess it makes me old, or maybe just old fashioned, but the latest wedding dress fad seems to be the see through bodice ¬†Now, there are extreme wedding dresses in terms of immodesty, with super low cuts back and front, but the see through thing is in a league of its own. ¬†I don’t know about the rest of the world, but I thought that weddings included grandparents and great aunts and uncles…and fathers! ¬†My goodness! ¬†If my grandparents saw me in a see through wedding dress, they might not be speaking to me anymore. ¬†And I think it would be safe to say my dad would not have walked me down the aisle.

It is a small wonder marriages don’t last today. ¬†If the bride is willing to show that much of herself…(and some of these go down to just about “there” ) to the whole world, when it should be sacred for her husband on her wedding day…wow, blows my mind.

I hear the arguments now.  No I am not saying everyone who wears a see through gown will get divorced.  I wish that on no one.  And yes, I realize most of us show off that much at the beach or pool in our bathing suits.  I guess the see through wedding dress just irks me.

What are your thoughts?


Proverbs 20:6-7

Many a man claims to have unfailing love, but a faithful man who can find?  The righteous man leads a blameless life; blessed are his children after him.
Marriage used to be sacred, used to be taken seriously, used to be forever. ¬†It should be. ¬†It is called to be. ¬†It isn’t anymore.
I (sadly) often wonder how many brides and grooms go to the altar these days pledging to love and adore their spouse until death do they part, or someone better comes along. ¬†I wonder if brides and grooms these days expect forever. ¬†It is heartbreaking. ¬†I expect forever, my friends expect forever, but forever isn’t always what occurs. ¬†
So many of our friends now are experiencing the pain of affairs and divorce.  It is horrendous to watch and be up close and personal with.  There are so many pains in this world, but I cannot fathom facing one where you lose your best friend, the one who is supposed to carry you through the bad times or at least bear them with you.  God of course is ever present.  It is still so hard.
I blame the selfishness we as a people have acquired over the years. ¬†So many horrible decisions are made in the here and the now. ¬†“This feels good now, I should do it. ¬†My kids, wife, family, friend, etc all come in second to how I am feeling. ¬†It is all about me. ¬†I should be able to do anything I want and not deal with the consequences.” ¬†This way of thinking causes issues in marriages, in unplanned pregnancies, in drinking and driving, in drugs, in every sinful area of life. ¬†I despise this way of thinking. ¬†And I say that knowing I am not perfect and my thoughts are not perfect.
Whether or not you are a Bible believer (of course you know I am), the rules and laws of the Bible do prevent a lot of pain if they are followed. ¬†And they don’t prevent a lot of fun as many tend to believe. ¬†
I am thankful for my faithful husband.  I am more thankful for my faithful God!  And I pray all the time that my children may grow up caring for others over themselves and that they may spend eternity with their Holy God.


My heart is heavy tonight. ¬†I see so many lives falling apart. ¬†Christians as well as non-christians are suffering across the world from hunger, fear, abuse, neglect and hopelessness. ¬†Christians, as well as non-christians in my immediate life are suffering as well…they live with children who are destined to a life of health strugglea, they live with the pain of a spouse who has given up on them, they live with the heartbreak of a child who has died, they live with no answers of what is to come. ¬†I am sad for those especially who do not know my Lord and Savior, for without Him I do not see how they can get through even one second of the pain. ¬†I am sad for those who do, too, because they still hurt and grieve, but they have the peace that comes from God and they are able to give their burdens to Him…for that I am thankful. ¬†I am thankful that God knows the end as well as the beginning, the future as well as the past…and that He knows best. ¬†He will forever reign victoriously! ¬†He will rejoice with my friends as they come to rejoice in life’s joys to come and He will rejoice with them even more when they join Him for eternity at the end of their time here on earth. ¬†Praise to God who carries us through and loves us despite our failures!

For I know the plans¬†I have for you,‚ÄĚ declares the¬†Lord, ‚Äúplans to prosper¬†you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Jeremiah 29:11

Emotions and Blessings

It is a hard week for me. ¬†My Joshua’s birthday is on Sunday and so we will take a family trip to the cemetery. ¬†It will be bittersweet. ¬†We will decorate his gravestone better than anyone’s in the cemetery. ¬†He will have Christmas and birthday balloons, trees, toys, etc. ¬†The kids will want to leave one of their toys for him. ¬†It will be a tender day. ¬†And yet we will smile knowing he is safe in the arms of his Savior.

It was a hard year.  We saw a lot of loved ones struggle either with marriages, loss, health, parents or children hardships.  Every year, every minute sometimes, I realize how fragile and precious life is.

This year, I held onto those precious moments.  I breathed them in.  I felt guilty when I took them for granted.  We are not promised perfect families or perfect health.  We are not promised that life will be pain free.  We are promised eternal salvation in Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior.  We are promised that He will walk through each minute and each pain with us.  We are promised that there is no pain in Heaven.  I ask of anyone who reads this to give your life over to Jesus and spread His word to all you know.

I take photographs often, even when my camera is not around….I take photos in my head. ¬†I know that I am blessed beyond belief with my husband, my children, my parents and family who love me even though I am far from the perfect wife, daughter, sister and mommy. ¬†I thank God and them for giving me chances far over what I deserve. ¬†I pray to the Lord that each of them will live with Him for eternity. ¬† My personal life this year didn’t go through the trauma that I watched others go through, but my heart ached and broke for each one. ¬†Each one made me appreciate each moment with my blessings.


I am angry. ¬†I don’t often get angry, but I am angry.

I am disappointed.

And I am a bit disgusted to tell you the truth.

The mindset of the majority of people is “look out for number one,” ¬†“all about me,” ¬†“I can do it because I want to and who cares who I hurt along the way,” “it feels right right now, lets not worry how it will feel in a day/week/month/year”

I know that God is sovereign and reigns over all, no matter what the government decides, but as I have said previously, I am sickened by what my children will be “taught” is acceptable behavior, what their friends will try to convince them is good when it is evil, and that they will be persecuted for believing in Our Savior.

After Tuesday I didn’t mourn, because I know God is in charge, but I did get angry. ¬†Part of me was even ashamed to be a woman, because I think many women were fooled by smooth words during the campaigning. ¬†I was not fooled, I did the research, separated the lies from the truth as best as anyone. ¬†Not everyone did…male or female. ¬†Some didn’t want to be bothered. ¬†Some like being selfish and setting our future up for failure because they won’t be here to see it. ¬†Some are just clueless. ¬†Some did research and still voted the opposite of what I did, but at least they knew what they were voting for.

Too many people are saying “I want,” which are the very words my children are scolded for saying. ¬†We “wanted” ourselves into a multi-trillion dollar debt. ¬†Why is no one concerned about this? ¬†We “wanted” ourselves into killing millions of unborn children and having others take care of the medical bill. ¬†We “wanted” ourselves into losing the traditional family as a standard. ¬†I use the term we loosely, because I don’t want any of that.

Even if you don’t believe the words of the Bible, lets look at these issues without using the Bible. ¬†How is debt good for anyone? ¬†The majority of abortions are not for medical reasons or rape, so why should my tax dollars go toward killing your baby? ¬†The statistics are extremely clear that children do better with 2 parents in the household…and they do better with a female and a male role model (aka: mom and dad). ¬†This is not always possible, sometimes parents leave or pass away, but in the instances where it is possible, shouldn’t we do our best for our children? ¬†We should not be killing them or showing them by example that sleeping around is okay or leaving them in debt or making them feel persecuted for standing up for their beliefs.

I know I offended people in this post. ¬†I am sorry if you feel bad, but I am not sorry for speaking up. ¬†We cannot be sorry that people are offended because we believe the Word of God. ¬†I would rather you be offended today and maybe look into what I am saying and maybe escape hell, then live for eternity in hell. ¬†Being offended is much better than going to hell. ¬†You can think I am a horrible person, and you know what? ¬†I am. ¬† I am a sinner just like everyone else in the world. ¬†But, I love people. ¬†I love you no matter what choices you make, because I am no better than you. ¬†I will be your friend, because why wouldn’t I be? ¬†Can you be mine? ¬†If I don’t agree with you, can you really be my friend? ¬†I can love you if you are gay, or if you have had an abortion, or if you voted for Obama…can you say the same thing back to me? ¬†Or is it only okay for non-Christians to stand up for what they believe?

I have some friends right now who are making HORRIBLE choices in their lives…this would be agreed upon in the eyes of Christians and non-Christians alike. ¬†Did you note that I said I “have friends”…even with these choices, I am not abandoning my friends. ¬†Christians are able to be angry at the sin and still love the sinner.

Our country is divided right now. ¬†It is obvious by the election. ¬†It is obvious by the aftermath of the election. ¬†Our pastor is awesome and not afraid to speak the truth and his words this weekend were right on. ¬†The future doesn’t look bright. ¬†I pray that we may not give up the fight. ¬†We still have to make our government know what “we the people” stand for. ¬†And above everything else we have to trust in Our Lord and Savior, because He will lead us Home.


“Haven’t you read,” he replied, “that at the beginning the Creator ‘made them male and female,’¬†¬†and said, ‘For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh’ ?¬†¬†So they are no longer two, but one. Therefore what God has joined together, let man not separate.”

Matthew 19:4-6