I know I keep saying this, but God is bigger. Corny as it may sound if life is going to throw us lemons, God is the ultimate lemonade maker. I pray that blessings pour out of the struggles that everyone is going through. It won’t take away the pain, but may show the purpose for the pain. Or at the very least, which is still amazingly great, we know He is with us through the pain.
Yesterday was Joshua’s birthday. It is a tough time of year for me. It is also a wonderful time of year for me. I miss my little guy terribly, but I love Christmas. Conflicting emotions. My husband, the best one ever, took my kids out for a “secret mission” yesterday and they came back bearing gifts of balloons, ice cream and cards. (The ice cream set me off on my emotion eating, which I had been controlling so well…but I digress). It was the perfect gesture. I cherish my family…I truly couldn’t be more blessed by them!
In the midst of sadness sometimes it is hard to find the joy…God allowed them to make the joy very apparent yesterday and I am thankful for that.
My heart still aches for my family and friends who are in so much pain right now, but it also sings with the joy of God’s blessings that I don’t want to miss through the tears.
Yesterday night I couldn’t sleep…it is funny how our bodies react to things. I think about Joshua every single day, but whether I want to or not, the emotions come flowing out this time of year. My mind spins, my memories overwhelm me. I don’t think this is a bad thing…I want to remember, even if it is painful. Anyway, since I was awake with a racing mind, I finally got out of bed and I blogged at 4:30 yesterday morning about Satan attacking people around Christmas. Wouldn’t you know, about 12 hours later, he struck again.
My heart and prayers are with my aunt, my cousins and my whole family as we mourn the loss of my uncle who passed away yesterday with a great suddenness. My aunt has a confident peace and hope that her husband is now with his Lord and Savior. That is the only comfort for someone who suffers a great loss. It doesn’t make the pain go away, it doesn’t mean there are no hard times, but there is a huge relief knowing that the one you lost is eternally at rest and made new.
My sweet cousin after just hearing the news late last night was the first one this morning who remembered Joshua with us. It is an honor that people still take the time to remember him.
There are lots of trials and struggles in our world each day…here and across the world. God is still and always BIGGER and he will overcome!