Reflection, Perspective and New Starts

My body sure has been through a lot in the last decade…pregnancies, births, crazy weight loss, weight back to normal, weight past normal (:P), various tests the last few years to determine…finally…that my body reacts to yellow dye, potentially other dyes, and is intolerant to a smattering of foods like oatmeal and broccoli (both of which I actually like).  In the midst of all the craziness, my workouts have intensified, my time with God has jumped around and my perspective has changed.

My body weight and fat percentage are not where I want them…I desire to be healthier and to shed a few pounds while defining the muscle that is already there, but I am finally at the point where I am not going to dwell on it as much as I have in the past.  Wondering which mirror is the most accurate, missing sleep to squeeze in that last hour of the workout, or just obsessing about 5 or even 10 pounds.  If I am making healthy choices, the weight will come off in time.  If I am not eating like a football player and being a glutton, if my husband loves me and more importantly my Savior loves me, then there is not one reason to obsess.  If someone else judges me based on a few pounds, shame on them, and if I let that bother me, shame on me.  My priorities need to be on God first.  I am ashamed to say that there have been days where I stayed up late to workout and then fell asleep reading my Bible.

So I am making a few changes.  I am still going to be healthy and workout, because I enjoy working out and think people should take care of the bodies God has given to them.

My mornings will look a little like this:

  • Devotionals (a few pages of 2-3)
  • Prayer and journal time
  • online devotions
  • workout (currently I am doing an ab challenge, a squat challenge, elliptical, a 4 week program kind of and I just printed the Spartacus workout so we will see if I add that in…that one is only 3xs a week and the 4 week program is not everyday either)
  • Normal day of chasing children, teaching children, cleaning, cooking and household maintenance
  • depending on how much time I spent working out, possibly another workout before bed…but not too late.  😉

With all the craziness of food I am going to attempt to eat as clean as possible.  I know this needs to be a gradual switch, so I will do it the right way.

I am excited to have a better perspective, I am excited to be healthier, I am most excited to see where the Lord will lead me and my family.

Just a few Tuesday life thoughts  🙂

Destined to Weight

So…I think I am being taught some kind of vanity lesson or something.  Although I am not one to fuss and primp, I do like to be in shape and I do some crazy workout routines sometimes.  But, as you all know ALL TO WELL, things have been backfiring for me in that area.  I try to eat healthy and it makes me gain weight.  I try a different route to be healthy…and it makes me gain weight.  I eat unhealthily and I lose weight.  What?  Fruits and veggies and wheat do not seem to be my friend at the moment, but I will hopefully know more tomorrow.

My BMI is still super healthy and I still fit in my normal sizes, though tightly, but my weight has changed…and not for the better.  (sigh)

So I wait for the answers to hopefully help in bringing down my weight and what happens in the meantime you ask….?

In the meantime, as in the past couple weeks, my foot has been sore.  Every now and then it swells up slightly, no big deal…until Easter weekend.  Easter weekend my foot puffed up like a balloon and as of today the Dr told me to baby it.  (sigh again).  And so I have to wait for my foot to heal.  This will not assist me in my weight loss.

So I wait for my approved foods, I wait for my foot to heal, I wait for my weight.  Maybe I am destined to be this weight forever.  Who that be so bad?  No.  But I want to succeed in my goal.  🙂

weekly update

Still avoiding the scales…although my clothes still fit and my measurements are pretty much the same, I know I have gained weight.  I can see it when I look in the mirror and I know it is there.

This week was spent experimenting with foods which assisted me in my weight gain.  I have narrowed it down to some potentials and now will stop experimenting.  I am an action person…can’t wait 30 days to be gluten free when I can experiment.  😉

So now that I feel gross and heavy AND have stopped experimenting I am doing a detox for a few days.  Normally I am not into these, BUT I do have some bloat, this detox provides PLENTY of calories, and it is all healthy food.  It actually may not cause any weight loss, but if it helps with the bloat and rids me of some yuckiness that my experiments have put in my body,then all the better.

After these 3 days of detox I am onto natural foods for awhile.  And allergy testing.

One of the meals for today’s part of the detox was a green smoothie.  I have to say if you have to chew a smoothie…a green one at that…it doesn’t need to be said that it is gross.  I couldn’t take it.  I replaced it with half of the ingredients of my breakfast smoothie and half lunch and it was much more tolerable.  Tomorrow, my green smoothie will have adjustments made to fit the requirements.

Be back with a better report next week.  🙂